Hello, Hi, Assalamualaikum !
Ni hao ma ? Wo hen hao ..
After getting happy and happy permulaan cuti semester, now I'm getting sad and worst when it started to end of the semester . It's a normal feeling to all students . But me, the sadness is not normal . Baru few weeks haritu berjimba during vacation kat East Malaysia .. After habis vacation, I've noticed something has been wrong on my beloved cat, Oyen . He's the only one feline with domestic long hair (DLH) a.k.a kucing kampung kacuk dapat bulu-bulu panjang . Which one is Oyen? The one yang aku dukung on my profile or blog's pic . He's really cute, isn't it ?
The worries started when I saw that his belly is getting bigger and bigger . As usual lah, aku memang kaki mengorek info kat 'Uncle Google' dan jawapan yang diterima mostly takde lah menakutkan sangat . It's like common problem macam internal parasites and etc.. So I decided to take him to the Vet Clinic kat Nilai nih . Klinik yang memang usually aku pergi untuk dapatkan vaksin si Adek dan Rakun . Rakun and Oyen were stray cats yang maybe DIBUANG ORANG kat tepi rumah aku or kawasan terdekat .
Sadly, the Vet explained something yang aku hampir tak boleh terima . How come this disease takde cure until now? Kenapa takde kajian untuk dapatkan cure kepada disease ni ? Other fatal disease macam FeLV (leukimia), AIDS, hespes-virus, parvovirus tu semua aku dah biasa dengar . Maybe sebab cases ni banyak masa aku jadi VA dulu-dulu . Dan seingat aku memang takde langsung kes FIP ni masa kat klinik aku kerja . Maybe kebetulan FIP ni disease yang common kat stray cats tapi less common kat kucing yang dibela especially indoor cats . Entahlah . Maybe Oyen dibuang sebab owner lama dia dah tau yang dia sakit or dah tua .
Doct Vet tak explained panjang . He just ask me to do research sendiri about FIP ni kat internet . Mula-mula aku macam pffftttt?!?! then aku terperasan masa tu memang dah dekat pukul 7malam, which is masa untuk klinik vet tu melabuhkan tirainya untuk ditutup . SO SAD! Doct just explained this disease cannot be cured, jalan terakhir is just put him too sleep . NO ! itu bukan jalan penyelesaian bg aku . Dengan hampa aku bawa dia balik . At first week after being diagnosed, Oyen tak nampak macam terlampau sakit . Dia cuma tak banyak gerak, laying down je maybe sebab perut dia . Makan semua okey . I don't know how I started to decide untuk bawak dia pergi UVH tempat aku belajar untuk conformkan disease dia ni . And my mom ask untuk keluarkan fluid dari dalam perut dia sebab nampak macam terseksa sangat dengan perut busong macam preggy . At first aku macam tak setuju sebab doct Vet klinik tu kata drained fluid dalam perut hanya tambah siksa dia dan buat dia pressure . Macam kita jugak, bila cat under pressure, their immune response will drop dan infection akan senang dapat .
Tapi entah macam mana, aku hanya nak dapatkan YANG TERBAIK untuk dia . So aku hantar dia ke UVH, Doct uvh kata suruh dia stay ward for several days untuk diagnosed and etc . Aku tak setuju . Sebab aku takut Oyen tak biasa, aku takut dia under pressure, paling takut ialah dia 'pergi' masa under treatment . But my mom kata okey, sebab Oyen ni style dia macam 'Ok je No Hal' . For one night, aku memang tak senang duduk . Esoknye dia dah boleh balik . He's highly +ve with FIP . Fluid dah keluarkan sikit . Doct UVH kata he's okey, selera makan okey . Then dia kata 2nd infection takda lagi . UVH gave me ubat untuk kurangkan sakit such as steroids, antibiotics and multivitamin . Even aku pernah baca steroids is actually not so good untuk kucing with FIP, tapi aku nak yang terbaik untuk dia . Masa ambil, he seems happy and bersemangat nak balik . Maybe takut duduk dalam ward kuarantin . But sadly, kaki da togel, bawah leher pon sebab nak ambil darah and drip air . Tersiksanya dia :'(
And now, tak sampai seminggu dia balik dari UVH, he seems to have 2nd infection . Rapidly breathing, dypsnea, langsung taknak jamah makanan walaupun aku sua dengan a/d diet yang menyelerakan untuk semua kucing. Aku rasa macam, condition dia more better masa perut dia mengelembung dulu daripada dah di drained fluid nye . Atau effect ubat2 especially steroid . Entahlah . I don't have any idea . To bring him to the clinic will only have one short answer; PUT HIM DOWN TO SLEEP (PTS) or eusthanasia . I don't want it ! Aku taknak kematian benda yang aku sayang, ada kat tangan aku . Doct kat klinik tu ada pesan,
"Kalau taknak dia terseksa, 'lepaskan' dia dengan rela . Jangan terus-terusan mengharap dia akan pulih sebab dia takkan pulih . Kucing ni instinc dia dengan tuan sangat kuat . Kalau tuan tak rela pemergian dia, dia takkan pergi dengan aman . Kalau tuan relakan dia pergi, the time will come on the right place, right time"
Until now, saat ini, masa ini, aku berusaha sehabis daya aku . Force feed him with syringe, makan ubat, made the most comfortable place for him to laying down . Tapi cuti tinggal 3 hari . Aku risau, nobody can't care him much . Aku akan sehabis daya jaga dia, but bila masanya tiba untuk dia 'pergi', aku selalu berdoa biar dia pergi dengan cara yang paling senang dan yang pasti bukan terletak di tangan aku . I will never put him to sleep, and will never let me the judge for his end of the life .
Dear Oyen, I know u're strong . Sometimes I just hope some miracle can happen so that U can be the only cat that survived with this evil killer disease . Let the world know, all this happen was in Allah's will . Allah is the greatest and He can do whatever He want . But deep in my heart, I know that it can't be . U're too struggling yourself to fight with this disease . I'm sorry if I can't be the best owner U ever had . The only thing that I want you to know is, I Love You So much :') I will love you UNCONDITIONALLY ~
*Sorry, no pic no video . I just can't stand my heart if I seeing the face of the painful of him . I can't and I never want to see it . If u wanna know about the detail's of the FIP, just type 'FIP in cat' on google . They're so many website, journal from the doctors itself . If U have cats that has been infected with FIP, is suggest U to read all the information about this disease . Unless, U'll help urself to admit the truth of this evil disease . Sorry if this post is just too boring, it's just the sentences from my heart . Thanks for reading ~
mood = ZERO
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